I am my own worst enemy. I know I'm pretty much there, my manuscript is in great shape, I've gone through and made necessary changes and gotten great feedback, but something is holding me back. It's not the manuscript itself, because I'm pretty proud of where Fire and Ice stands, but the doubt. For the last week I've been ho-humming around the real issue, the fear of the unknown. I have no clue what's going to happen next, and the unfinished part of my story is in the hands of agents who don't even know me, and probably won't read more than a few pages of my manuscript. Which is why I've been staring at same pages over and over again, tweaking passages, changing words, only to change them back again.
I decided a long time ago that no matter what happened, writing is a part of me that I can't shut off. No . Matter. What. Whether I get published or not, I can't quit it. Even if I'm not physically typing away at the laptop, my head is in a different place, and that's never going to change. I just wish I knew what was going to happen. Would it be nice if the future was set in stone and we knew exactly what was coming. But unfortunately, life is always changing, so are the paths we tread. I may need a push to help me over the edge of no return.
DO IT!!!
ReplyDeleteTo quote wiser souls than I... sometimes you have to take the leap and make your wings on the way down.
You'll never know what amazing things you can accomplish if you never try!! Plus, my mom always says when you get the point where you change something, then change it back to the way it was several times, it probably means the project is finished. For now. Savvy?
GOOD LUCK!!
Sending a manuscript out into the world is scary!! Good luck! Just keep trying and you'll get there eventually.
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ReplyDeleteAnd that is why it will happen for you. :) It is scary, and it may take time, but it will. :) Good luck!
Totally. Love your attitude. Keep pushing, and keep believing. Love your energy!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! Just take a deep breath and hit send. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.
ReplyDeleteThis is me sending you a huge shove. Sending your ms out is like letting go of a piece of yourself. It takes an enormous amount of courage. I am here to hold your hand through the whole crazy process.
ReplyDeleteI'm pushing you! You can do it! :)
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